In the direction I'm headed right now, I'm in a better mind state than I was a few days ago. I'm always ansy, I'm always nervous, but I always bear down and get through whatever I have to.
I recently have been through a roller coaster of emotional changes, yet I feel more alive than ever before. Maybe it's because I seem to be in constant motion, always moving and working and trying something new. I haven't had a stagnant day in over a month. Maybe that's what I need. Some stagnant time.
Last week I presented myself as if I were on top of the world. I wasn't. At least not mentally. I just got a new job, I have good grades, an amazing girlfriend and I was soon to go on a vacation. Then things turned. I found out my car was fucked, I wasn't going to get the job, an my girlfriend kisses another guy. I can tell you right now that at that point in time, I wasn't only mentally troubled, but everything in my world had kind of given me the finger.
Now I'm better.
